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Normally I share to you by writing you an email, but lately I feel moody, more like… sad actually that I decided to make a recording… You can listen when you can. I just want to share. It's just… I feel unproductive… What I mean is that it is not about university study, since I got many deadlines :), but it is in the musical field. I feel like this because I didn’t record anything to share my music with people on Youtube… Even though lately I did practice, yes!! I also try to find time to practise. But then again when it comes to recording, I always feel nervous… I am not lazy or anything (even though sometimes my parents say that to me :(), but I don’t have the courage… I mean, I can see for myself that I am a perfectionist, therefore I have a mindset that I need to play as perfect as possible. And another problem is that, a situation which I practise for one or two days, then I rush meeting deadlines for some days, and then practise again, but when I play, I feel my hands are stiff and lose some flexibility, and then I have to start over and work hard… and then my anxiety is getting worse and worse. I also enjoyed your new videos along with my friends’ new music videos as well, but sometimes I get envious. I spend some time overthinking things like: everybody is making progress, but why do I feel I didn’t? Did I do anything wrong? And sometimes I was too harsh on myself, asking: Why am I hopeless? My feelings about this are just vague, but I try my best to get it off my chest. I want to end that sad feeling. So thank you very very very much for spending your precious time listening to my stories like that. I wish you a good day, and don’t worry about me. I will certainly feel better after telling this to somebody I trust. Love and hugs.